No? Yes? No?

He is probably the first boy who told me that he liked me but didn’t know why. He is perhaps the first one who told me to just be myself. What he said means a lot to me.

Nonetheless, he is not a Christian; he is not older than me; he is not much taller than me; he is not a Chinese; he does not know Chinese culture… There are many things I value but he is not familiar with. Of course, there are also many things I don’t care but mean much to him.

If I know what is right and what is wrong, I will know the answer to that question. If I don’t know, I should pray and wait for His answer. What if God doesn’t respond to my prayer or He answered but I refuse to listen?

All these things trouble me, day and night. What should I do? What should I not do?